A broken heart

How do you mend a broken heart? We had to make the heart and gut wrenching decision to have our beloved Golden Retriever, Tahoe, put to sleep last week......we knew the day was coming and we'd been terribly depressed about it for days leading up to it. She was 2 months shy of turning 13 years old; she was having a lot of trouble walking and her last couple days had no appetite. Our vet told us a month ago that it was time, but we wanted to believe some different pain meds would help her. Then last Tuesday it was evident that we had to......so on Wednesday June 10th......my heart broke into a million pieces.....I've cried every day since. Now I've had no appetite, no ambition to go to the gym. I've only lost a pound and a half and last week lost some muscle due to not eating enough. At least that happened and I didn't turn to food to make me feel better. I know I have to get back to the gym and get back on track.....it's just so hard when you lose a loved one...whether it be a person, dog, cat.....doesn't matter. She had the sweetest soul and will be missed beyond words.
So, not much luck with the weight loss the last couple weeks.....can't lose much when you don't eat. This week hasn't been much better; we are still grieving over the loss of our sweet Tahoe. Today, tho, I forced myself to have at least the 4 protein meals and tried to drink enough water.....I have to work this weekend and hopefully next week will get back to the gym and resume working out. I've got about 20 pounds to go to meet my goal.....I'd sure hate to lose ground now, so I'll have to hit it extra hard......